I usually end the year with two posts: Favorite Things, and Joy of the Month Club. You’ll understand a little about what my year has been like if you look back and see that the posts I wrote a year ago are my last entries. It has been a year.
I’ve been feeling a little lost this week as the New Year approaches. I usually look back, evaluate, and give thanks then look forward, anticipate with joy, and make goals. This year I don’t really want to look back or evaluate. I survived and that’s enough. I do find myself full of thankfulness, however. God is good, my family is precious and wonderful, my friends are faithful and supportive, and my life is full. So many people have ministered to us so well and I am grateful. Looking forward is obviously not the same either. I feel all cattywampus. My goal-setting abilities seem to be asleep. I’ve considered all kinds of things I’d like to do, but as I pray about them, I only sense God telling me to be still. I think 2019 is a year to heal. After all of the changes of 2018, I think that’s probably best.
I knew change was coming as I packed away the Christmas decorations last year. The feeling was growing in my soul. I am not trying to say that I am psychic or anything like that. I just think that God knows when we need preparing, and sometimes he does that for us as a part of his great grace. This year he is telling me to breathe, to learn to live this new life, to let him lead the way–one day at a time.
I was looking through my commonplace book and came upon this quote from One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. I think it’s a good one to take into 2019. “The brave who focus on all things good and all things beautiful and all things true, even in the small, who give thanks for it and discover joy even in the here and now, they are the change agents who bring fullest Light to the world.”